I don't know many people that go through a crisis praising God and not questioning Him about why they are going through it. We all want to see the good during the bad but life doesn't work in that order.
I recently shared with the world that I have alopecia. I bared it all on my instagram not for the attention but for the release. I've had alopecia for a few years now and I've seriously suffered in silence. I would get anxiety about going out because what was I going to do with my hair. I would dodge phone calls or be "busy" just to avoid being around. It may seem small to some but if all you heard growing up was you need to have long real hair and now you're bald, it hurts. But since I opened up about this issue I have never received more love and support in my life. It brought me to tears reading messages from my Instagram, friends and family about how they support me and appreciate my vulnerability.
But can I just say before this support from people who love me, I was mad at God. I was upset that I was the only woman in my family that dealt with this issue. Always wearing weaves, always covering up, always feeling ashamed. I am guilty of not finding joy during the hard times. I realized that my relationship with Christ when bad times occur on a human level is like giving up on my husband when we have an argument. Just because this season is bad or the situation is bad doesn't mean I shouldn't love & trust the person he is and has always been.
I still have alopecia and no matter how free I feel, everyday is not perfect but I am finding the joy in this difficulty. I am learning that you can't thank God for the crisis now that the crisis is beneficial for you but challenge Him when you could not see the benefit. I will praise God in the crisis before the benefit. As hard as that sounds and even more difficult for me to write, I know that in everything that happens to me, God is still God.
So whatever you are dealing with, I am hoping and praying that you find joy, no matter how small. We truly grow from what we go through and if we never make it through the crisis, we never get to experience what God has for us. You deserve what is beyond this situation!
#dearCrisis I choose joy